6 Week Bumpdate

Due Date: April 10th, 2016

6weeks

How far along? 6 weeks 6 days (I decided to do these at the end of the week so it would be a true recap)

 How big is the peanut? A sweet pea

Total weight gain/loss? Down 2.5lbs

Maternity clothes? Not yet

Sleep? I can’t get enough sleep right now. I feel like I’m tired all the time.

Best moment this week? Seeing our baby on the ultrasound and hearing his/her heartbeat (119bpm).

Symptoms? The symptoms have not changed much since last week (tiredness, sense of smell, indigestion) with the exception of some added breast soreness.

Food cravings? None right now

Food aversions? Anything sweet

Gender? Well we know now there is one baby instead of two. I’m still saying girl.

Names: We’ve not talked about it this week so no change.

Labor signs? None

Belly button in or out? In

What I miss? I have missed my yoga but I am slowly getting back into it.

What I’m looking forward to? Our next ultrasound on September 2nd

Milestones? Hearing our baby’s heartbeat

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The Surprise of all surprises

Little girls may grow up dreaming of meeting their prince charming, getting married, and having babies…but those dreams do not involve seeing a Reproductive Endrocrinologist to do so. Even when I started getting a feeling that it would take us a longer time than most to get pregnant, the thought of doing IVF never crossed my mind. Taking that step means you no longer have the surprise factor of finding out you’re pregnant because you’re a few days late because well, it just does not happen that way.

We received our calendar for our FET and started treatment in June. I had started getting more involved in the TTC Community on Instagram and found out about a book called Wish by Matthew Cordell.

Wish

During my next Target trip, I went to the book section and teared up in the aisle reading this book. I bought it in hopes that it would be our baby’s first book.

In this post, I shared that I found out on my mom’s birthday that I was pregnant. My mom died when I was 4 and it is like she was saying “I’m here” when I found out on her birthday. I got home from church after my husband got home from work so I had to be discreet moving the book to the room and setting up the surprise.

When he came in the room to go to bed, I told him I appreciated all he was doing to help around the house through this and that I had got him a little something. He opened the bag, pulled out the book, and I could tell he was a little confused (thank goodness I had the iPad set-up to be recording all of this). He started reading the book to himself and then out loud when I asked him to. At the end of the book, the elephant couple welcomes their little one into the world. His initial look at the end of the book suggested he liked it and then he caught on and asked me if I was pregnant. Tears followed and we celebrated together.

I am so thankful that even though we were on a set calendar with a “beta day” that we knew from the get-go, I was still able to surprise my husband and share that precious moment together. Our wish did come true and we cannot wait to read this story to our little one.

5 Week Bumpdate

I hesitated whether or not to do these bump updates but ultimately decided to because I want to document as much as possible with this pregnancy. Pardon the photos with my head chopped off – once we go fully public with the pregnancy, I’ll go back and update with photos that include my head 🙂

Due Date: April 10th, 2016

5 week bumpdate

How far along? 5 weeks

How big is the peanut? An orange seed

Total weight gain/loss? I actually haven’t weighed myself in 3 weeks and we do not have a scale at home. I’ll have to pit-stop by the grocery store this week to have my weight for the next update.

Maternity clothes? Not yet

Sleep? Sleeping good through the night and waking up much earlier due to the early morning wake-up call for the PIO shots.

Best moment this week? Two this past week: 1) Getting our results from our betas and having a great doubling time. 2) Telling some of our family and close friends. I know it is super early but these people have been our support through this process and we want this baby/babies prayed for and loved from as early as possible.

Symptoms? I’m really tired, have indigestion, my sense of smell has multiplied and do not feel like I can get enough water. The number of water bottles next to the bed is comical. I never used to eat breakfast until 9am once I got into the office but I am now hungry first thing when I wake up.

Food cravings? None right now

Food aversions? None right now

Gender? I’ve said she a few times and my husband thinks boy/girl twins.

Names: We’ve had a boy name picked out for awhile and there are 2 girl names we like.

Labor signs? None

Belly button in or out? In

What I miss? Sushi! I haven’t actually wanted to eat it yet but just the thought that I can’t have it is making me miss it.

What I’m looking forward to? Our first ultrasound on August 20th!

Milestones? For us, getting pregnant is a huge milestone!

A Tale of a Two Week Wait

After a very relaxing weekend, Monday morning meant going back to work and getting back into a routine as close to my normal one as possible. I knew having something to focus on would help but all I wanted to do was stay in bed with my fuzzy socks on and color 🙂 Here’s my recap with is more like a novel:

3dp5dt & 4dp5dt – I woke up exhausted. My husband has to leave for work at 5:30am which means a very early wake-up call for my PIO and heparin injections. My alarm does not usually go off until 6:30am and after sleeping in on the weekend, I was not prepared for getting up an hour earlier. I tried to go back to sleep but I pretty much just tossed and turned. Symptoms wise I had what I can best describe as tightening and pulling sensations and the morning of 4dpt I had the tiniest brown hue when I wiped (sorry if that’s TMI but at this point I have no modesty when it comes to this process).

5dp5dt – I threw a pregnancy test in my bag today because it was my mom’s birthday. My mom died when I was 4  and I had thought when I got my calendar for this cycle that it would be really neat if I was able to get my BFP on her birthday. All day long at work I thought about the test being in my bag but never worked up the courage to use it.

On Wednesday nights when I’m not traveling for work, I go to as many youth services as possible to help out. This Wednesday we had a meeting for all of the adults that worked with the youth so I wrapped up work and headed over to church. As soon as I parked, I decided I would test. I made my way to the bathroom and after testing was very excited to see this…

5dp5dt
The line was faint but it was there and it was such a relief to see this light line, as we had been waiting to see this for 2 1/2 years. I went downstairs to the prayer chapel and prayed – for all of the prayer requests that the Insta-ladies gave and for this precious gift.

I had a special way to tell my husband and he was completely surprised when he found out when we both got home that night (more details on that later).

6dp5dt to 10dp5dt – More exhaustion and tightening sensations and feeling really tired. I’m also starting to have tenderness in my breasts. I spend my evenings relaxing at home but ventured out one night to a Restorative Yoga class. Tests continue to get darker:

6dp5dt

8dp5dt

11dp5dt – I’ve established a routine in the mornings: my husband gives me my shots, kisses me, kisses my stomach and heads off to work. I lay in bed and at some point get up to go POAS and then get ready for work. I loved watching the lines get darker and it was nice to leave it out for when my husband comes home for lunch. The routine was great until this morning and my line was lighter than the one I took last night:

10dp5dt

Level 5 panic ensued and I was so afraid something was wrong. I texted my husband to tell him to say a prayer and he called immediately. We spoke briefly and decided we would stay as positive as we could.

Around 11am I received a call from my favorite nurse at the clinic – she has been my rock through this process. She said she was excited to see me the following day for my beta and wanted to check and see how I was doing. I told her about the positive tests – 6 that progressively got darker and the 1 from that  morning that was lighter. She said the darkness didn’t matter, to not worry and she’d see me in the morning. It may sound ridiculous but that helped fix my outlook. I decided I was not going to worry. I had acupuncture that night and told my acupuncturist about it and she made me promise not to POAS again.

12dp5dt AKA Beta day – My favorite nurse greeted me with a huge smile and completely calmed me down. Somehow, even after all these blood draws and injections, I still get nervous when it comes to getting my blood drawn. The process was easy and off I went.

I spent the next hr in the car creating the posts for the Women on Wednesday Prayer list (see previous post if you want more information on that) and praying for each prayer request. I wish I could say the day flew by but it didn’t. I saw my phone ring with the caller ID showing my doctor’s office but unfortunately I was in a meeting that I could not step out of. Go figure – I’d been waiting all day for this call and it happened when I could not answer. I called back and got the news we had been waiting for – my beta was 280! After all of these years, I am pregnant 🙂

14dp5dt AKA Beta #2 day (today) – This morning was a little easier to go through the blood draw process. I had to go to the lab at the medical center by doctor’s office is at. I only had 1 meeting at work today and spent the rest of the day cleaning out old files, reorganizing my desk and setting up the work station for a new hire that starts next week. The day went by much faster and around the same time I got the call from my doctor’s office. Beta was 781! I was and am ecstatic! I quickly plugged my numbers into a beta calculator and it said my doubling time was 32 hours.

She transferred me to the front desk so I could schedule my ultrasound (it’s almost surreal t be typing those words). We will be going in on August 20th so I’m about to embark on another TWW. Here’s to enjoying each day until then!

How was your TWW?

All because someone was willing to share her story

They say that 1 in 8 couples fall into the infertility category but it seems like I have unknowingly surrounded myself with a higher ratio of couples who are battling this diagnosis.

– Of my core group of college friends (4 of us): 1 has endometriosis and got pregnant a few months after being off BCP, 1 has been diagnosed with unexplained and is pursuing treatment, 1 has not started trying for children and then there is me. 3 out of 4

– Out of my close group of friends here (again 4 of us): 1 has PCOS and does not have children, 1 conceived naturally after trying for a year and half, 1 has children, and then there is me. 3 out of 4

– Out of my close friends that I taught with at my last school: 1 has PCOS and is undergoing treatment, 1 has PCOS but is not pursuing treatment and 1 had repeat pregnancy loss

Apparently I need a warning symbol for people who meet me to let them know that if they want to have children naturally, they are running a risk being friends with me 😉

The sad thing is that I’m sure there were other friends with infertility but it is not something that is talked about often or at least not until the pregnancy gets to a certain point. Thankfully my friend with RPL slowly shared a little of her story with me over the years and when we reconnected a few months ago, she had the perfect words for me without even knowing that we were struggling with infertility. She has talked about wanting to change careers to nursing to be able to help women going through infertility and RPL My brain screamed “Tell her” but my mouth would not get the words out. We gave hugs and said our good-byes.

Every day after that conversation I had a nagging feeling that I need to call her and finally after some time passed, I picked up the phone and made that call. I told her that she didn’t have to go back to school to be a nurse but that she could find another position at an office to provide support and help to women going through this….that it was more important that she knew the words to say. I then spent time telling her our story and shedding tears through it. Tears of relief of being able to share my story and not feel like less of a woman and that telling her was a safe place and she would know what to say.

She told me that she would add me to her Wednesday prayer list because she prayed for the needs of the women in her life on Wednesdays. I loved that idea and started doing it myself. Then a few short weeks later I reached out to the women on Instagram to see if they would like to participate. I have been absolutely humbled by the prayer requests and praises and I have loved seeing the TTC community come together each week to pray for each other’s needs on Wednesdays…all started because one woman was willing to share her story.

I’d love to have you join us. If you’re interested, follow my Instagram account and please comment on the post that looks like the below:

TTC Sister Updates

I post it every Tuesday and then post the list on Wednesdays. My account is private to respect the privacy of the ladies that have private accounts and share their prayer requests for the group. If you do not want to post your information, please email me at Bloomsinthebreeze@gmail.com or DM me on Instagram – I’d love to pray for you.